I keep track of my everyday thoughts and rants in a journal as part of my self-declared therapy. I recently found out that after writing what I am feeling and thinking about, I become calm and relaxed so I make it a habit to write an entry almost everyday.
I went over my old notebooks from elementary and highschool and as I flip through the pages, I saw my very young self ranting over past crushes smiling back at hallways in school, petty bestfriend fights, and tons of handwritten love quotes. It was nice going back to those memories from time to time because it reminds you that your perception of things becomes different as you grow mature and wiser in life.
Now that I’m a bit older, I’m still on my way to reaching my potential to become the most mature and wisest version of myself. I lose my way sometimes and having a journal really helps me put things into perspective. I write all of the things I think about, ponder upon and realize so that the handwritten pages will be there whenever I need my wiser self to remind my weaker self.
Also, one of the reasons I keep a journal is because of my poor memory. I need to jot down anything that comes to my mind that I don’t want to slip away.
One of the things I write in particular is the “Notes To Self” list which enumerates collective random thoughts and realizations on everything that has happened to me in the past few years. It also helps me remember everything I have learned in my past relationships.
Notes To Self:
1. People have reasons why they suddenly stop liking/loving you. They avoid doing it face to face most of the time not because they’re douchebags but because they don’t want you adding up their guilt when they see you crying and hurting.