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Before the day ends, I want to greet the woman who once conceived me from pancit bihon (which should’ve been pancit canton, my dad just brought the wrong kind and she got really angry at him at that time hehe).

Seeing many friends and relatives in my generation having kids, it’s only now that I appreciate her for carrying me in her womb for 9 months. 9 months is a really long time for a woman to have a big heavy and wriggly bump on her stomach and kudos to her for that.

I love her for enduring my annoyingly loud cries every night for several years when I was a baby (based on her stories, I was a very spoiled toddler).

I love her for always making me wear Sunday dresses growing up (with matching laced socks and doll shoes). It was very difficult dressing me as a girl because most of the kids around me are boys and I wanted to dress like them back then.

I love her for being beautiful and talented. She once won a pageant called “Mrs. FABCEA” and I vividly remember her dominate the whole thing. As a kid, I found myself shouting “Mommy ko yan!” and I was really really proud of her.

I love her for having a blood of a businesswoman. Even though being a nurse takes a lot of her time due to shifting schedules, she used all of her free time attend classes and buy stuff so our family can have an extra income. She tried lots of things and excelled in all of them (Tupperware/Vision/Pyrex sales, candle making, soap making, chocolate making, baking, and many more). I was hoping I have inherited some of it, but seems like my Kuya got it and didn’t leave anything for me.

I love her for being thoughtful and giving. Her hobby is to make something and give them out to family and friends as gifts. She will never hesitate to give anything and everything she has, even the last peso left in her pocket, or the last grain of rice she has on her plate. She is more than willing to give all of what she has even if there would be nothing left for her.

I love her for being so funny. I remember the first time I told her I have a boyfriend, her first reaction was “Thank God! I thought boys don’t like you because you don’t take a bath!”.

I love her for being so strong. She assumed both paternal and maternal roles in our family when my dad passed away and kept us family intact. It has been several years and our family had come a long way.

I love her for her very high level of enthusiasm and happiness. Her energy is projected only by simple things in life and it’s never ever hard making her smile.

I love her for her strong faith. I know she is always praying for me and Kuya and Cayo every night, wishing for us to be safe and guided by God always.

I am uncertain if I will be able to give back even half of what she has given us, but one thing I can assure her is that we are and always will be there for her and always love her.

Happy Mother’s Day Mommy! I am coming home soon!

There will always be a point in your life where you’d experience the extremes. Ups, downs, lefts, rights. It will literally make you dizzy if you don’t try to focus and pick up the pace.

For everything that has happened in the past months, whether positive or negative, I am forever thankful. A lot has been realized, digested without any regrets.

Thank you, dear life, for giving me another chance.

Life has become less interesting. Those blog topics I promised to write, I cannot find the words. Seems like those days went by without me capturing the memories even in writing. Shanghai now is nothing but an ordinary place, and I have lost touch with my alter ego, the one who pushes me to see what is there to see not only in Shanghai, but the whole of China. I wonder what went wrong.

I have recently went back home for a week, and I have felt how much happy it was to be there. Family and friends are definitely the same old ones, but that’s what makes me want to go home more. I miss the old life, the people I used to talk to and the places where I used to hang out. Those used to be my remedies for life’s downhills, and now they are far out of my reach.

Being an overseas worker has its ups and downs, but I’ve never been this lonely my entire life. I feel like I am stuck in where I am but contented nonetheless. I have no problems with being away from home, but I am depressed at the same time. I feel like I want to fly back to the homeland tomorrow, but after a few seconds, I will realize that I have so many plans and dreams to fulfill. The time spent away from home is a lonely investment, but they say it’s worth to go through.

Despite all these, I can’t help but go back to this post I wrote two years ago. Seems like I have been making so much memories after all.

Despite all these, I am still thankful and blessed.

Cheers to another year, and the next years to come!

Mistakes were made, lessons are learned. You and your love stayed the same despite of my shortcomings. I promise to spend my every waking day making it up to you. I love you. Happy 9th year.

Because of the crazy influx of things to do (work and leisure alike), I realized that it’s been one year since I last put something here. This is a good time to look back on what happened in the past year.

Here are the topics I owe langgam.org:

1. The not-so-practical winter footwear (November ’11)
2. First Christmas away from home (December ’11)
3. New Year with the happy Chinese people (January ’12)
4. Family trip in Hongkong and Macau (January ’12)
5. B2ST Concert in Shanghai <3 (February ’12)
6. Shanghai 3-day challenge (March ’12)
7. Crazy high in Korea! (April ’12)
8. Surviving the most feared LDR
9. Getting fit before 30: challenge accepted
10. Beijing: Not sweeter the second time around (June ’12)
11. New found love for literature e-books

Will write them one by one in the coming weeks. Stay tuned!

I’ll see you.

I’ve lost my energy. I don’t know if it’s right, but I’ve become passive and disoriented. I’ve become my alter ego. When will I be crazy happy again?

Day 30 » A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

The three good things that happened in the past month:

1. I survived the cold winter in Shanghai. Spring is really here!

2. I’m better in handling finances. I’ve tamed my impulses and even documented my expenses everyday. At least I’m improving.

3. Looking back at a blog post almost a year ago, I mentioned:

…I want a memory that would make me fall off my chair or even just make my lips draw a half smile. I want a memory that stands out.

…I feel like I’m missing out on some things. I need to find out what they are. I need to make new memories in this phase of my life. Time’s running out. I won’t be single unmarried forever.

Well, I think this is it. I’ve already tried new things, visited new places and met new people. Working here in Shanghai is by far the most worthwhile experience I ever had in my life. It’s really handy to be patient.

At last! Day 30! A vain photo to end the blog challenge.

I thank thee. Cheers!

Day 29 » Something you could never get tired of doing

Waiting.