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Last week..

Monday. Too frustrated to work. Was given a simple task since last week and got stuck with an unknown configuration problem blar blar blar Java Spring blah blah. Still not talking in my seat.

Tuesday. Still stuck with the same task. Hoping my superior would not be too impatient. Still shy to ask questions. Had a team meeting which made me talk to the team. This is a good start.

Wednesday. STILL stuck with the task. Still scared to ask questions. Still want to try resolve the bug myself before asking. Self deadline is Thursday before asking for help.

Thursday. Was given a new task with the old task still at hand. Worried that I might not be able to deliver since this was the last day of the week. Asked a team mate to help me with the new task and was able to finish it in two hours. Asked him to help me identify the problem with what the original task that I’m doing particularly the meaning of the error message I keep on getting in my console. Problem solved! Happy! Asked kumares to go out and celebrate and we did. Awesome night.

Friday. Holiday! My brother’s birthday! Fiesta meal at a friend’s house. Got all blushed up after just one glass of Red Horse beer. Videoke with two of my favorite friends. Happy.

Saturday. Watched Yes Man, Taken, Kung Fu Panda The Secrets Of The Furious Five, Wall E, Knowing and The Holiday at home. Happy.

Sunday. Bought new DVDs. Went home far, far away. Started watching America’s Best Dance Crew Season 2. Pacquiao’s amazing!

I hope this week’s gonna be great. My spirit’s up. Go go go!

If I were to pick my favorite day of the week, it would definitely be Friday. I love Friday nights because I get to go home and the thought of having two more free days will be stuck in my head before I go to sleep. Saturday and Sunday for me are my panic days.

My first week at work had been both great and blar blar (I use blar blar when I can’t describe what I feel). I hope everything will turn out from blar blar to okay in no time.

An hour ago, I was anxious and panicky just thinking about being in the office after tomorrow. I feel like I’m running out of time. Good thing I started drinking beer with my boyfriend an hour ago. Really helped me calm down and think everything through.

On other news, I’m recently hooked with American Idol 8. Only five weeks left before the show ends. I’m hoping Danny Gokey would win over Adam Lambert.

My to do’s for next week :

• Learn Spring MVC
• Fix my closet in the apartment (looks like garbage at the moment)
• Download Paramore’s Final Riot
• Start using my Nikon D40 again
• Start using my Holga 120 CFN again
• Start blogging about life, not just opinions

And I realized I’m starting to miss the bum life now.

April 15 marks the third month I have stopped working.

After I lost a job three months ago, it was difficult to adjust at first but I got the hang of it after a few weeks. And now, I’m used to waking up at 10 in the morning unlike before where I have to wake up two hours before the office hours. I wake up, go online, check my mail, socialize with people in Plurk, play online games (JamLegend, Restaurant City and Word Challenge to name a few), watch American Idol and sleep late at night (insert two meals in between all of these, eaten whenever I feel like eating). Not productive but fun.

I have mixed feelings. I’m sad because this phase in my life will be ending after several days. I’m also excited with the new things I’ll be experiencing. And I’m nervous too.

I have ten days left. Minus one day for the medical exam. Minus four days for the family trip in Baguio. Five days left all in all. And I don’t have a clue what I missed out doing in the three-month vacation.

I’ll miss being unemployed. I’ll miss all the free time I have. I’ll miss being in the one place I love. I’ll miss everything.

Now, what to do?

A job! My second, technically.

I had my taste of rejection with one company I’ve applied to. I’ve always wanted a company with a three-day application processing, but after receiving THE rejection email, I thought the process was too fast and left my head spinning. I’ve really worked hard on scribbling Java codes on the whiteboard to impress the interviewer, but I guess it’s not enough. I’ve been irate the whole day after knowing the news. I didn’t even get a reply after asking in which interview I failed (HR or the technical interview). I don’t deal with rejections too well.

But a harsh reality is much better than waiting and guessing if the result is harsh at all. I’ve been in the hardest technical interview (ever!) and I never heard anything from them after that. I felt that I’ve been too desperate for the result after realizing that I’ve been texting the recruiter several times asking what the result is. That was everyday for almost two weeks. No answer. I guess it’s a sign.

So now, this company. They’ve been patient with me from the very beginning. My application was processed after two weeks. I’m excited to work. I was hesitant to accept it at first, but I was attracted to several things:

1. The office location. It’s in a street in Ortigas with lotsa establishments! And most importantly, Starbucks!
2. The workplace. Modern motifs never fail to be attracting.
3. The receptionist. From day one, the company’s receptionist was friendly not only to me, but to all other applicants, I think. She has a very contagious jolly mood.
4. The general manager. In my final interview, the GM was so down to earth and very interested with my career development. He’s thrilled with me working for them. He’s open and honest with everything about the company.
5. The dress code. The company doesn’t require employees to be in business attire. Woot! I’m gonna miss my old wardrobe though.
6. The work itself. I’m still aligned with Java development work, so yay for me.

Naive as it may seem, I’m liking the company mostly because they’ve been nothing but friendly and patient with me. Work environment and co-workers are big chunks of my work motivation formula.

I’m onto processing pre-employment requirements which I think is the most stressing part of being employed by a new company. I still have 18 more days to enjoy what’s left of my unemployed life.

I have an interview tomorrow which will require me to go online and place myself in front of a webcam. I don’t really understand why, but I’m still going through with it. Even in casual online conversations, I always decline with webcam chats because I find it really, really awkward.

But maybe the webcam thingie can allow the HR person to check if I’m cheating on the online exam that I will be taking. Hmm.

Still weird.

Another LJ account. Again. But but but here: that blog is more discrete than the previous. The previous account has my name all over the place. Though people would somehow know that that’s me (when their lurking comes to worst), at least they wouldn’t know at first glance. What the hell am I talking about.

The past months of this year has been both harsh and kind to me. Harsh because I’ve been kicked off by the company where I was for two years and six months. I had this surreal and ecstatic feeling at first, but things changed as days passed (because my separation pay is getting consumed little by little). I feel useless most of the time. So a month after being unemployed, I finally boarded the job hunting bandwagon. I’m still in search for a perfect job (is there such thing?).

Fate has been kind to me though. I have supportive people around me which really made feel at ease at tough times like these. Thank you.

More on my adventures in the next few weeks.

Finally, I’m up for the job hunting challenge. I’ve been to several exams and interviews but I’m not expecting to be hired very soon. Just enjoying the overwhelming experience of answering interview questions in English while thinking in Filipino. Not a very good combination.

On other news, I paid the whole balance of one of my cards.. finally! One more card to go and I’m debt-free!

Some of the plans that are STILL not put into action: jog around UPLB campus, open a new savings account. Damn, that’s it? No long-term plans? Tsk.

Summer’s here. And I’m enduring the daily lethargy from the job hunt instead of enjoying the summer sun at this time. It’s like not having the chance to enjoy gifts on my birthday or Christmas because I’m all grown-up for those stuff. No beaches or pools? That’s too much deprivation.

I suddenly thought of not rushing into getting a job.

Another weekend. There’s so much to do considering the circumstances. Pay day, cloudy day, new coffee shops in town. I’d rather shop than stay here and let the impulse eat me up.

I have done all the computations and prioritized every debt that needs to be prioritized. This gave me a little headache mixed up with a little heartache from the beginning because of the huge amount of tax I saw on my payslip the other day.

The good part is I get to go home and see him, and that complements the tormenting week I had at work and also levels down all the headaches and heartaches.

And for now, I’m shopping. No subject-diversion intended.