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» Your dream wedding

I want a simple wedding. All girls wearing white dresses with black ribbons tied on their waists. Guys will wear coats. For my first dance with the husband, I want Stevie Wonder’s Ribbon In The Sky played by a super good jazz band. I don’t want the traditional lineup of wedding reception activities. I’d like everybody saying how happy they are seeing me happy.

I want a wedding photographer who can take photos like this. Vintage-y, lomo-ey (I don’t even know if these are valid words).

» A song to match your mood

Lazy Daisy by Up Dharma Down

She’s a lazy daisy
Watching the sun turn
Into rain and maybe
Waiting for something
To take the pain
She don’t know why
It doesn’t shine
In her rainbow sky
Everytime
She won’t say
How the word can play
She won’t say
How you can stay
She’s a lazy daisy
Painting pictures in her head
Sweet like candy
Loving all of what is said
She don’t know why
It doesn’t shine
In her rainbow sky
Everytime

I’m not sure what this song means really, but every time I listen to Lazy Daisy, I feel dreamy and hopeful.

» A photo of yourself two years ago

Here is a photo of me on the 2nd of November two years ago. Except for the cheeks and muffin tops I have at the moment, I still look the same.

» Your idea of the perfect first date

To be honest, I can’t think of any. I’m not really into mushy stuff. I’m just a fan of a long and happy conversation of things we both love. That would definitely make my day.

Scratch that. I want ice cold beer.

» A photo of something you ate today

For today, I decided to really start my diet for my cousin’s wedding on December. So for dinner, I feel obliged to eat ensalada.

I have crazy love for veggies and bagoong. A local restaurant offers ensaladang tagalog, a combination of all the ensaladas I can think of. This ensalada costs 110 pesos and has the following in it: green mango, kangkong, okra, tomatoes, onions, salted egg and bagoong. And imagine a two-person serving. I’d always order calamansi juice to enjoy this meal. I feel clean and full afterwards.

So bummed I forgot to take a photo of my beloved ensalada, but I’ll post the last food I ate this weekend. My lola cooked this for us when we went to visit her last Sunday. Goodbye caldereta. For now.

Good luck on the diet! *pats back*

» A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was

Today was not the perfect day to visit my dad in the cemetery.

I have always been excited when November is just around the corner. We always camp out on the eve of All Saints’ Day ever since my dad passed away. But unlike last year, there were no tents, no ghost stories, no strolling around the memorial park. It was raining hard the whole day so we just ate lunch in Daddy’s grave and left. Bye too early Daddy.

To pass the time, my cousins and brothers and I decided to watch Wes Craven’s My Soul To Take 3D. I’m so glad this movie was only a thriller 3D movie. No monsters for me for the next nights.

I was also craving for a Fruitas orange smoothie and I can’t find a Fruitas stall in SM! I bought Zagu Jamocha Almond instead.

While driving our lola, my brother and I are discussing about me taking a masteral degree. Aside from lack of time and money, I’m sure my company won’t allow me. I really don’t see taking an MS degree helping me in my career, but I think it’s worth considering.

Rain, rain, go away. Seriously.

A month after moving away from home sweet home CBD Makati, finally, an internet connection! Can’t say that I miss just being around Ayala Avenue, Pasay Road, Makati Avenue nor Jupiter. It’s nice to try new places to stay every once in a while.

I went to DFA this morning to renew my passport. I was too happy when I left because of DFA’s new passport processing system. I arrived at 7:15 AM and finished at 8:00 AM. Quick eh? My passport will be processed just in time for our Singapore trip. Finally. Singapore. The trip will be on March and I’ve been excited from the second I got the booking confirmation email. A friend told me it’s too early to plan our itinerary so I am forced to wait till January to resume.

True love, it is.

I’m recently hooked to the TV series How I Met Your Mother, a mixed drink called Bad Trip in Central bar, iPhone applications, OPM band Techy Romantics and Korean pop songs. They get me by through the day, and once, Techy Romantics’ 7 Years got me through a scary movie The Hole 3D (which turned out to be funny midway towards the end).

On other news, I promised myself I’d start with the 30-Day Blog Challenge I learned from Mapet‘s blog.

30-Day Blog Challenge

Day 1 » A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was
Day 2 » A photo of something you ate today
Day 3 » Your idea of the perfect first date
Day 4 » Your favorite photograph of your best friend
Day 5 » A photo of yourself two years ago
Day 6 » A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet
Day 7 » Your dream wedding
Day 8 » A song to match your mood
Day 9 » A photo of the item you last purchased
Day 10 » A photo of your favorite place to eat
Day 11 » What’s in your makeup bag
Day 12 » A photograph of the town you live in
Day 13 » Your favorite musician and why
Day 14 » A TV show you’re currently addicted to
Day 15 » Something you don’t leave the house without
Day 16 » Your celebrity crush
Day 17 » A photo of you and your family
Day 18 » Something you crave a lot
Day 19 » Another picture of yourself
Day 20 » The meaning behind your blog name
Day 21 » A photo of something that makes you happy
Day 22 » A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 23 » 15 facts about you
Day 24 » A photo of something that means a lot to you
Day 25 » What’s in your purse
Day 26 » A photo of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 27 » A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then
Day 28 » Your favorite movie
Day 29 » Something you could never get tired of doing
Day 30 » A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

Will start on November 1st. Hopefully. Twitter and Plurk ruined things for me. Can’t think of anything to write in here. Grr.

I feel. This won’t go anytime soon.

I want to take a leap of faith. Stay tuned.

I’m happy and in love and everything else. I am content with what I have. But sometimes, I feel like I’m left out.

I have a blur memory of myself when I was in 2nd grade. Our family just attended my cousin’s 18th birthday and I was thinking what my 18th birthday would be like. And now, I’m wondering that in a few years I’ll be 30 years old. “A few” is a number with one digit that is less than five. This is entirely different from my childhood pondering. It was an exciting feeling then, but now, it’s more of a panicky and an overwhelming one.

If someone would ask me about the most memorable experience in my life, I can’t think of any. All memories have equal attention for me and I’m not complaining. I can name random memories off the top of my head but it won’t matter because I’d be enumerating a different set of memories after waking up tomorrow. I fear that I’ll have amnesia in the near future, but that would be a different story.

I used to write in journals long ago when there were no cyber journals a.k.a. blogs to ramble on. I thought it was a good thing but my brain got dependent to the things I write in them. But where are my journals now? They’re just stuffed somewhere in my room. Gone. And now, my mind has the reflex of sucking in and flushing out memories.

I want a memory that would make me fall off my chair or even just make my lips draw a half smile. I want a memory that stands out.

Then people like Charlie Andrews in Heroes TV Series would come in the picture. I sometimes wish I had an ability like hers.

I’m turning 26 this year and I know that in the future, I’ll have kids with the man I love, get promoted with the job I want and travel to places I’ve never been before. These will be in the next 4-5 years. But I’m a little worried about the years in between. I don’t know if I would be able to catch up with what I want to do with my life before I get too old.

I feel like I’m missing out on some things. I need to find out what they are. I need to make new memories in this phase of my life. Time’s running out. I won’t be single unmarried forever.

I want to grow out of this shell. I want to live this life like I never did. I want to try out things I haven’t even thought of trying.

I’m out of time.

How come I don’t blog anymore?